Loaded question, anon. I hope this was just you being quizzical and not you trying to cause a fight. I know quite a bit about loss. I went to my first funeral at just a few weeks old and they’ve just continued regularly since then. The first death I really remember was my Aunt Suzie’s. She was my dad’s favorite sister and was in her 30s and had died after a long battle with breast cancer. My dad kind of went off the rails when she died, did a lot of bad shit, and my mom ended up leaving him for a couple of years. That was a great loss to me. Up until that point, I was fairly normal. After that, I ate more, cried more, did worse in school, and was an altogether gloomy person. In junior high, a good friend of mine passed away. After that point, I developed some not-so-healthy coping behaviors and dipped into a deep depression that has yet to let up. As I’ve gone through my adult life, I’ve lost many people to death and to indifference. Many people left me just because I was so depressed. I wasn’t fun and bubbly anymore so why stick around, you know? This hasn’t happened for awhile and I’m thankful for that. Recently, I lost my father to lung cancer and that was a really difficult loss. I don’t think it’s really sunk in that he’s dead. I haven’t really cried since I found out when I was in the hospital.
So yeah, anon, I have a lot of experience with loss.
What if I wanted to kill myself because I am feeling extremely existential and I just want to feel what it is like after death?
Just know that your time will come much too soon, even if you live to be 80 years old. I’ve lost too many people lately and to be the survivor is horrid. I’d compel you to live life to the best of your ability and accept that death will come when it’s meant to. And that time is years from now.
Also, I might call you House. Don’t you remember when he stuck a knife in a socket because he was wondering if there was an afterlife? It’s best to just live life as it comes. Peace.
It makes me actually do something instead of just sitting on tumblr browsing. I feel compelled to post more Liv because I don’t want my followers to get annoyed that I’m answering so many questions (because I don’t get many usually).
well to be fair how could anybody seduce liv?? I know I for one would be too focused on not drooling or saying something stupid to even begin to try to be seductive! :D
I would be so awkward if I ever met her. Not just because she’s hella amazing and I adore her but because I’m hella awkward in general. I have social anxiety and you can usually literally see me vibrating because of it. But maybe someday I’ll meet Liv and get to tell her what a difference she’s made in my life.
mmh cophine are awesome :D But Olivia with any woman is still the number one fantasy ^^
I have dreams about that too. I feel bad about them when I wake up, but during them, I’m pretty ok with everything. Liv’s seduced me a few times in my dreams. It’s never the other way around though. I don’t have enough game, even in my dreams, to seduce anyone.
Understanding, intelligence, wit, a slight amount of snark, a love of life, compassion, and probably someone who has a vagina. Nothing against penis wielding people, but for some reason I get sick to my stomach imagining penises or seeing pics of them on my dash. Don’t know what that’s all about. Also, I drank some keifer that had the consistency of semen and threw up. So there’s a story I didn’t actually need to tell you.
If I were with you I'd love to tease you. I'd love to stare into your eyes, bite my lip, lean in, drop my eyes to your lips, let out a tiny breath ... my hands would wander to your thigh and I'd smirk when you twitched. You'd lean into me and I'd bring my other hand to your head, running my fingers through your hair... my lips would part... yours would too. And then...I'd kiss your cheek.
This is the most romantic message I’ve ever gotten. Anon, I’d welcome your sweet kisses (if you aren’t a creeper obvs).